6/10
    Hello and welcome back to my diary. Well, on the work front, I still haven't found a job. Yesterday, my dad accidently called home because he pressed the wrong number on the speed dial, but even though he didn't want to talk to me, he still took the chance to yell at me about finding a job and college, isn't that fun? Something might come up though, my history teacher and fellow web designer told me that a company by our school is looking for a person to make a website for them. Hopefully everything will fall into place, but with the luck I've had lately, I have a feeling that is won't.
    Then, just as I thought my love life would clear up, it has to frickin' jump back in the fire. I've been waiting forever for this letter that Maria was supposed to send me about us and how she feels. I finally got it yesterday and it said in more words than nesessary that she just wanted to be good friends. That was fine with me because I still have Jackie to deal with and then I wouldn't have to disappoint either of them. The letter made me a little sad because I don't like being turned down, but I got over it. Then today, while I'm talking to one of Maria's friends, she tells me that while she was talking to Maria after she sent the letter, she saw me on cable TV for one of our Jazz Band concerts and that I looked "delicious". Don't ask me, I can't explain women. She hasn't confronted me about it, but we'll see what happens. That's all for now, talk to you later
Matt
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6/14
    Welcome back. So, what's happening with me.....well, I saw Austin Powers twice this weekend. I saw it on Friday night when it came out and my friends wanted to see it again. It's a good movie, but everytime Heather Graham came on the screen, it made me a little depressed. I don't know why, it just did. She's such a babe.
    Another bad situation came into my love life again. As you can see from above, I was a little depressed yesterday evening when out of nowhere my ex Betsy from last summer im'ed me. We chatted for a while. This is when I found out she broke up with her boyfriend from October. The way she was talking to me, it seemed like she was talking to me cause she needed someone to comfort her, of course I was wrong as I found out later. But at the time, all of my old feelings for her came back again. I would love to get back together with her, but I've pretty much excepted that I can't. I'm starting to get close with Jackie, so I don't want to push of to the side for Betsy even though I like her. We all know what's the right decision to make.
    I'm still waiting to hear something about the web lacky job that I might be getting. I found out the company, and looked around. They already have a website, but they are looking for a webmaster to take care of everything, and the person they're looking for has to be a serious master. I just know enough, but not as much as that person needs to know. That's why I'm probably going to end up being a lacky that helps the master. Any way, that's all that's new over here. Talk to you all later
Matt
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6/16
   Hello everyone. I've got news about Betsy (if that's her real name?). I talked to her at out swim meet last night. At first the conversation was nice and jokingly. Then eventually, she brought up the fact that I called her a bitch in my past diary entry and continued to ask everyone there if they had read my diary or not. Betsy, if you read this, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it, I was angry at the time, you gave me a good reason to be angry, but I shouldn't have said that. I apologize. Now, everyone's seen it, are you happy? That's all I have for now, talk to you later.
Matt
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6/19
    Hello everyone. I'm still depressed. After reading a little one of my friend's rants, I've decided to try expressing my emotions more than just stating the facts, let me know what you think. I worked all day at the pool today. We had an inservice this morning with the fire dept. After the inservice, I realized how many of the people that I work with are total retards. One girl, after the guy from the fire department told her that all the rescues would be spinal injuries, jumped in to save someone like it was a regular drowning victim. It's a good thing that this was practice because if she has done that with a real  victim, she would have been sued up the ass for neglet.
    Along with that, I've been stood up the past two nights by Jackie. She's done this to me before, so I'm kind of use to it. The only problem with our relationship is that she works constantly. She has two jobs cause she says that she needs the money. She lifeguards during the day and then works at Great Clips in the evening. The past few days, she's been finishing work around 9:30. She told me to call her at work, which I did. Whenever I would call her, she would be busy, and with that she told me she'd call me back so that we can make plans. On Friday, I went out to dinner with my parents and called her when I got back. She told me she was busy and then proceded to not call me for the rest of the night. I can understand someone being busy and not havning the time, but even after she was supposed to get off work, I didn't get a call. I emailed her telling her that I didn't mind her breaking plans, but if she was going to break the plans, to call me and tell me so that I didn't have to sit around the house all night waiting.
    When I got back from work today, I checked my email and saw and email from her. It said that she was sorry and she was really swamped with work and didn't have time to call. She also added that she would call me from her work so that we might be able to get together. I got home from work early and called her work again. The guy that answered told me she just stepped out, so I left my name and number, and then just sat around for the rest of the night waiting. This is where I am now, bored out of my mind with nothing to do, so I'm writing all of you. I'm hoping all of you felt more emotions than jealosy or pity. If that's all you felt, email me, I'll try to improve.
Matt
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6/29
   Hello everyone. I found a job, and today was my first day. I'm interning with Steele Communications. One of the owners is a father of a kid I swim with. He hooked me up. If I didn't find a job by friday last week, I would have had to go crawling back to the pool, but they hired me on Wednesday, just in the nick of time. I started there today. My boss Mike is pretty cool. He likes wrestling and listens to hard rock music. On his desk, I saw a pile of cd's including Korn and Metallica. Since I'm an intern, I do a lot of the crappy jobs. Today I was cataloging images to a database which consisted of me pushing a button and waiting for a half an hour. It was a pretty boring day, but I had fun.
    My love life is crazy again. I'm used to it now, but it's still annoying. I found out lately that Jackie lied to me about her age. She isn't my age, like I thought. I made that whole big deal about how it was better to have a girl my age, but she isn't. She's two years younger than me, ahhhhh!!!!!!!! Any way, besides that crap, since she's constantly busy and me losing my trust in her, I fell back in love with Betsy. I was going to give her a letter that explained how I felt about her, but when I was about to give it to her, he ex-boyfriend showed up. That kind of put a damper on my situation. So I wrote her an email that explained the thing with the letter and put my feelings into a brief little thing. I'm still waiting for her to read that, but she's been busy with a horse show and working, so she hasn't checked her email yet. Any way, that's all the news with me, talk to you later
Matt
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